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I’m tired of living up to your expectations

Elicitations

Man all the stations

I’m going to take myself out of this box that

you so methodically put me in

That I so easily let you shut the lid on

Shared blame

Always the same

roundabout of emotions:

he loves me

he loves me not

he loves me

he loves me not

he loves me

he loves me not

SHOT

Right in the bullseye of why I remain(ed)

tame

Living this same shame

day after day

week after week

month after month

Remaining in this rut

SHUT

up in my own self- blame, self- shame

Hate of oneself is an obstruction

Laying the pavement of self- destruction

An abduction of one’s soul

Never allowing oneself to be whole

To truly be who I want to be.

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