I’m tired of living up to your expectations
Elicitations
Man all the stations
I’m going to take myself out of this box that
you so methodically put me in
That I so easily let you shut the lid on
Shared blame
Always the same
roundabout of emotions:
he loves me
he loves me not
he loves me
he loves me not
he loves me
he loves me not
SHOT
Right in the bullseye of why I remain(ed)
tame
Living this same shame
day after day
week after week
month after month
Remaining in this rut
SHUT
up in my own self- blame, self- shame
Hate of oneself is an obstruction
Laying the pavement of self- destruction
An abduction of one’s soul
Never allowing oneself to be whole
To truly be who I want to be.
